Jmenuji se Tereza. Nem\u00e1m psa, ani ko\u010dku, nem\u00e1m mu\u017ee, milence, milenku, \u017eenu, ani d\u00edt\u011b. Nev\u00edm, jak\u00e9 jsou moje paraleln\u00ed sv\u011bty. A zda v\u016fbec existuj\u00ed. Je mi to jedno.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
V\u00edm jen jedin\u00e9, \u017ee tou\u017e\u00edm jet do Afriky a d\u011blat tam divadlo, poj\u00eddat v sed\u011b na zemi s africk\u00fdmi \u017eenami sma\u017een\u00e9 larvy s kuku\u0159i\u010dnou ka\u0161\u00ed, d\u00edvat se na pou\u0161ti na oran\u017eovo-rudo-fialov\u00fd z\u00e1pad Slunce a c\u00edtit horkou v\u016fni p\u00edsku, obdivovat v\u0161echny odst\u00edny nebe za soumraku a pak v noci se d\u00edvat na hv\u011bzdy a p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161let kam a\u017e vedou.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tou\u017e\u00edm toulat se d\u017e\u00edpem po Saha\u0159e, prod\u00edrat se d\u017eungl\u00ed, nechat se pohltit ostr\u00fdm vzduchem tibetsk\u00fdch hor a ozv\u011bn budhistick\u00fdch m\u00eds, zvon\u016f a \u010dinel, sly\u0161et z minaret\u016f „Adhan“.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tou\u017e\u00edm st\u00e1t na stejn\u00e9 l\u00e1vce na ostrov\u011b prince Edwarda za rann\u00edho rozb\u0159esku jako Anna Shirleyov\u00e1 a Gilbert Blythe v n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed milovan\u00e9ho a miluj\u00edc\u00edho mu\u017ee a \u0159\u00edkat: „Boj\u00edm sa prehovori\u0165 \u010di pohn\u00fa\u0165 od strachu, \u017ee sa t\u00e1to jedine\u010dn\u00e1 n\u00e1dhera rozplynie ako rann\u00e1 hmla.“.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cht\u011bla bych rozd\u00e1vat j\u00eddlo uprchl\u00edk\u016fm na ostrov\u011b Lesbos, dr\u017eet je za ruce, d\u00edvat se jim do o\u010d\u00ed, hladit je a \u0159\u00edkat, \u017ee za to nem\u016f\u017eu, \u017ee jsem na druh\u00e9 stran\u011b, ale pokus\u00edm se p\u0159eklenout propast mezi n\u00e1ma.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cht\u011bla bych pochopit, pro\u010d se d\u00edv\u00e1m po t\u00e9m\u011b\u0159 80-ti letech po konci v\u00e1lky na horu star\u00fdch zpr\u00e1chniv\u011bl\u00fdch kufr\u016f, vlas\u016f a \u0161at\u016f zavra\u017ed\u011bn\u00fdch \u017did\u016f v Osv\u011btimi a pak ut\u00edkat stovky kilometr\u016f do \u017diliny ve stop\u00e1ch \u017eidovsk\u00fdch hrdin\u016f Vrby a Wetzlera.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chci sed\u011bt u ohn\u011b na na\u0161\u00ed chalup\u011b a vdechovat v\u016fni p\u0159esu\u0161en\u00e9ho ho\u0159\u00edc\u00edho d\u0159eva, znovu b\u00fdt d\u00edt\u011b a sj\u00ed\u017ed\u011bt po z\u00e1dech \u0159eku Bel\u00e1 lemovanou vysok\u00fdmi vlhk\u00fdmi smrky liptovsk\u00e9 p\u0159\u00edrody,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chci se ve star\u00e9 sv\u011btnici d\u00edvat na fotky m\u00fdch p\u0159edk\u016f, jej\u00edch\u017e krev koluje v m\u00e9 krvi a p\u0159em\u00edtat o jejich \u017eivot\u011b a prosit je o pomoc a odpu\u0161t\u011bn\u00ed a odpou\u0161t\u011bt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tou\u017e\u00edm hr\u00e1t svoji Cizinku v Chaloux v\u011bz\u0148\u016fm, kte\u0159\u00ed nem\u011bli to \u0161t\u011bst\u00ed narodit se v miluj\u00edc\u00ed rodin\u011b, chci experimentovat a zalo\u017eit divadeln\u00ed skupinu, kter\u00e1 v\u0161e obr\u00e1t\u00ed naruby.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chci pochopit, pro\u010d k\u0159i\u010d\u00edm, kdy\u017e jsem v \u00fazk\u00fdch, pro\u010d m\u011b bol\u00ed srdce, kdy\u017e nemus\u00ed, pro\u010d bre\u010d\u00edm, kdy\u017e nec\u00edt\u00edm bolest, pro\u010d se sm\u011bju, kdy\u017e n\u011bco nen\u00ed sm\u011b\u0161n\u00e9, pro\u010d se omlouv\u00e1m, kdy\u017e se nem\u00e1m za co, pro\u010d c\u00edt\u00edm vinu, kdy\u017e nejsem vinna, pro\u010d m\u00e1m strach a z \u010deho.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chci se dozv\u00eddat co je sv\u011bt, kdo jsem a kdo jsou lidi, kte\u0159\u00ed se mnou sd\u00edl\u00ed toto m\u00edsto a tento \u010das.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zoufale se chci nau\u010dit d\u00edvat na sv\u011bt o\u010dima Boha.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Erika Merjav\u00e1<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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